Brooke... When did cross a line?

So, for Halloween, I went down to Brooke's (even though I was going to go to the dance and try and meet up with Dane) but she said she'd hook me up with this cute kid and we could double with her and her boyfriend Jordan. So, I get down there, and it turns out that two other people were gonna come down. They apparently were just "friends"... Lie. They were most definitely a couple. So then there's two couples, and me... awesome. So we carve pumpkins, and I do my best to be a good sport and not weird about it. Yeah, ha. Funny. Afterwards, we decide to watch a movie. Haha, even better. So they start seriously looking into scary movies, and I'm convinced that I won't be able to do it. The other girls had some boy to hold on to, not the loser sittin in the corner against the wall. Finally, we settle for Ghostbusters. Ok, I can do ghostbusters. False- they start snuggling on the couch while the other two are on the beanbag doing the same thing, so I shoot brooke a text. We come up with an excuse to go outside to the cars. We get up on the deck and holds me and keeps apologizing while I struggle to keep it together. She didn't mean to. She didn't get it. Told her it wasn't on purpose, but I had to go. So much for sleepover, I was going home. So its about eleven thirty-ish and I sit in my car and call Aaron once, twice, shoot a text, call again. Nothin. I was so frustrated and upset. So I drove through the canyon around midnight, parked at McDonalds, got a fry, and called Aaron crying. He's cute, but he didn't know what to say. I didn't know what he could say. Its just lonely, and I missed him, I missed being held. Made it home around 1. Then today (Saturday, November 2) We went up for Ann's baptism. I sang, and didn't completely botch it so that was nice. But Brooke came up with Jordan. I was fine, til I looked out the window of Brooke's room and watched them. They seriously looked married with Nathan and Adam as their kids. Throwing leaves in eachother's faces, down shirts, and he was always constantly rubbing her back. She wouldn't leave his side. Psh, I wouldn't either. I am happy for her, I don't mean to sound like I'm not. Its just, difficult because now we're choosing separate paths, and right now I'm sacrificing while she's loving it. It'll swap I know, and I don't regret anything. Merely, right now its just hard to watch her and see how it could've been with me.