Feelin right vs Doing right

When you fall in love for the first time, it's the best thing in the world. You love him, he loves you, its stars all  around. This is the time to be selfish and drink up every moment. Then, you eventually marry, and it is harder. Not because of money, or occupations, or children. But because now It is all around selflessness. You soon figure out the code-Happy wife=happy life. Happy boy=life's a joy. But when your dating, being both selfless AND selfless are crucial. Hard, hard, hard. Now, being selfish includes giving yourself only to a person who "is worthy of you" and has your same standards. This is hard, because it requires patience. Being selfless proves to be just as hard if not harder, because it requires endurance. Someone will love you, and you care about them, treasure them, and need them. But you don't love him. Maybe you do, but because the timing is wrong, you can't allow your heart to consider whether or not he could actually be the one. True selflessness is being able to do the right thing when you know its not gonna feel right. It will cut you to the core, and that lonely ache in your chest will be your new companion for awhile. But, you always know that you've done the right thing is when you don't regret it. The hope that there is an even better option in the future is the flickering sunlight behind the mountains is what drives you to put the past behind you and turn and walk away.