October 19,2013. Random

Well, today I'm not feelin too much of anything. Just missin my boy... Who's the boy? I have no idea. I know someone who would be, but he's too close as my best friend, so I can't call him up anymore. I have no idea who my husband is, which is a good thing, but man I hope he has initiative and inspires me to get things done. I can't wait til I get on a mission cuz then I will feel like every single day I'm breathing I''m making a difference in someone else's life, even if it is just my comp. or my own. I'll finally be able to put my heart and soul to work and never get sick of it. Man, that's what I wish I had. I get to feeling so lazy, I don't want to do anything except mooch, and I do NOT wanna be that kind of parent, mine aren't like that and I hate that I am that way. I can't wait til the Lord puts me into work. It's not like I've had huge significant trial waiting. But it definitely was not what I was expecting, seeing I love being independent. But if I were to describe the hardest thing about waiting for a mission call, in one word I would say lonely. But I really hate whining, so I really am fine. It's just hard cuz the only person that understands what your feeling is the person your dedicating your life to, so you don't want to complain to Him. But its dumb cuz its not like I'm planning on getting married yet for the next little while, so it's not like I wouldn't be alone for the next year and a half. Man, guys really are never told how truly phenominal they are. Ah oh I love the priesthood, and I will forever admire them for their strength and their dedication and focus. Yes, we women are jewels, but you men are the gold that holds us together. Well there's my scattered thoughts for the day, not really wanting to delve into anything too deep today. Love ya, bye.